Vision...

When Dad was ill last year it was my brothers' vision for me to take care of Mom and Dad. It was good for that season. I learned a lot. Then I took a job in the same city that Mom lives in. The job was a financial hardship paying a LOT less than what I was making before and taking me out of the city where my sons and my church are basically isolating me.

My vision is to be more of a part of my sons life, to be in the city where my church is... to have MY life back. But the truth is, if I had this earlier I would have made a mess of it because I was not ready.

But now? 

I am closer...

Where am I now?

The vision that I am living out now is not mine. 

That is why there is no inspiration and there is no life! 

There is no passion because the burden that I am carrying is not one that is near to my heart and it is pulling me away from where I need to be... by my church family, by my children.

God please show me how to make this situation right, because you and only you can do this.

Catching u up...

Okay... I did not hang out with the girl from the jazz club that I was talking about in the previous post. 

I did take down all of my profiles from all dating sites except for 1. 

All of my profiles are down now. 

I did however meet one young lady that honestly is everything that I would ever hope to date and possibly one day marry.

Our second conversation she talked about tithing. We've talked about our relationship with God. We've talked about our struggles. She has fasted. Her desire to get things right with Christ has been inspiring to me.

I believe that there is one God. I believe that there is spiritual warefare and wickedness in high places.

This morning, God has shown me how my finances are being attacked and how I have just laid down and let it be. It should not be so. IT SHOULD NOT BE SO.

He also showed me how easy it is to miss God. in simple things.

I have to start blogging again.