Interesting.
So... how do I feel about this?
That's a good questions.
I feel good.
I mean, the first time I got married out of obligation. I married this woman that I barely knew that I knocked up when I was in college. For 15 years we had a really weird relationship based upon the fact that we had a family together and really not much else in common.
To some degree, she resented me for her predicament, and if I had to be totally honest - I probably held some resentment too.
The result of all of this was that I truly became gun shy and I never thought that I would marry again. I set my expectations very high and I was ready to end things at the drop of a hat.
I always believed that I would settle down if I found that one person that got relationship the way that I did, but when it comes to dating, I was pretty sure that my viewpoint was definitely not the norm.
I mean... open and honest communication. Who does that? Everyone basically lives in some weird sort of shame...
Trust? Everyone has been done wrong a million times, so trust is hard earned.
Faith in God? That impacts the way you live your life??? Mostly in word only, never in deed or action.
That's where I set my bar.
I also thought that I could teach someone these things... thus the 2 year plan. Learn my system...
But you can't teach someone how to be something that they naturally are... so I changed my tact. I started looking for people that naturally possessed these qualities.
Well... I found her.
In 15 days we'll be married.
And in my mind... that's the way it should have been since the beginning.... so, I'm at peace.
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